Wow, can't believe it is almost November. I was at the grocery store last night when I smelt a familiar smell. It was Christmas! Wow...this soon.
These past couple of months have been fun, exciting, exhausting and frustrating. But then again, not everything can be good at all times.
I got a temp job working at Fred Segal for the sale. Had so much fun....
But that ended.
I had an interview for a job in Pasadena. I really want it. I am throwing this out in the universe in hopes I get it.
And I partied it up with my friend Carolann ...woohoo...How times have changed. She can still kick it...me...not so much!
Comedy club with Barbara. And been trying to hit the gym and continue on needlepointing. I am in a bit of a slump right now that I hope to get out of tomorrow. So thought I would write real quick....Get a good night sleep and hopefully start fresh tomorrow.
I hate the feeling of uneasiness. Hate it. Not sure where to turn to next, but see a change in my near future!
I have to. I am miserable right now...
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Only in Los Angeles
Can a girl skinny dip with a 22 year old recording studio guy on Sunday and Lunch with a 54 year old documentary filmmaker on Wednesday!
Still hitting the gym pretty hard. Need to continue to lose some of this obnoxious weight. Went to needlepointing. Loved it! Start Class this tuesday. Went to dinner club with devin. Loved that too! Was fun and met some nice people.
Thursday had gymboree with Dr. Care and bebe drake...Then dinner with b, Dr & D. before heading back to the 'hood.
I picked up my mail and it frustrated me so bad. I got sent to collections for unpaid bills which I did not know I had. And health insurance did not cover any of that $500.00 bill. WTH? So slap in the face. I got to sort out the car and don't know how I am going to swing that. I got so mad at my mom for getting into my business. I was calling to ask questions about a check my dad sent in and she started making comments and suggestions and told me how things should be. Believe me, I know how things should be but with this insurance world...it is not! I was criticized and given suggestions and thoughts that I did not need to hear at 5AM because I did not sleep at all that night because of stress. Then she opened up my bills and called me back to tell me the collection agency is calling home. I WAS IRATE! She said she would pay them. I told her I did not want her to b/c I could not trust her. She is filled with empty promises. And then she threw the "well you always say I am 35, I can handle things myself" I hung up on her. My family is so MESSED UP! in every way possible. I don't understand them. I think they are all crazy! they think I am difficult, moody and they have to tip toe around me. But seriously they are screwed up! But I am saving that story for a book!
Secrets, lies, arrests, deaths...crazy! crazy! crazy!
Friday was a fun skype date with my boys..yen and hen! Miss those boys so much and they cut off their hair!
This weekend has been about looking for work, needlepointing and gym and pool....I have not spoken to anyone but Joe and his son. Not in the mood to reach out. Will call people tomorrow. Carrie is awesome. She invited me to a pool party today, but I was just in a funk and did not want to drive that far on a holiday weekend. So for now...I might go see what is going on in the other room...
But before..ok I am on match.com..Not sure why. But met a pianist that teaches at ucla. I think he thought we were dating before we even went out!
I agreed to go out with him but asked for a photo. He said he would send one. And me being the investigator that I am, I found one online b4 he sent it so told him no need to send pic because it does not matter, I think it would be fun to meet up with him. Which I meant. I love the piano and he writes music, so thought it would be fun! Well I was on-line after Dinner with Devin on Wed and he started instant msg me. And it creeped me out. He kept saying " that is so sweet, do you really like me?"
"You said you really like me before we met, that is so sweet." UM..no I never said that. But he would not quit with this nonsense, so the next day I said you know what I am very busy the next few weeks and things have just come up. Which was so true. with collections, and car and bit stressed out and need to focus on finding work. within min. he replied back, well when can we meet up? I then replied, not sure like I said a lot is going on...then he said.. I will take your word for this and not read into it. I took my profile off match b/c just felt like it. Got sauced and changed my profile. When I changed my profile it automatically put it back on. Unaware of this, I get an email from piano man saying" i thought you were busy"...
Can we say, block and remove profile again! Within hours, I got an email on my gmail acct ...let me copy and paste...
Subject: Nice Attitude.
"Glad I didn't meet you. You showed your true colors and are a horrible liar. Blocking me on that site was the icing of the cake.....good riddance!
Get some manners...most people from NZ are very mannered...what happened to you???"
OK..lol...I decided not to meet you. I never lied, I have a lot on my mind and I am not from New Zealand. I am a bit concerned about this guys sanity at this point. Are you kidding me?
Then 15 min later I get this email from some made up address with athletic.dude in the email name but the guy had his initials as the contact so I immediately knew it was him...OK...whatever..here is the next email I got.
"How are you?
We met on that dating site. Are you busy this weekend or could you squeeze me in for a coffee?
George"
What piano man does not know is the email address i gave him is used only to enquiry about apts on craigslist and I don't give it to anyone. I only gave it to him b/c I did not want to give him my primary email addy b/c I did not want him to know my name. So, there is no way it could be anyone else but him. Then I checked the ip address and my thoughts were confirmed. OK I am a bit spooked out. Did not reply because I think I am dealing with someone with emotional issues. I contact match and filed a complaint. I am getting off this site. Only weird ones are finding me! I am done and for now I will just make out with 22 year olds late night in the pool!
Still hitting the gym pretty hard. Need to continue to lose some of this obnoxious weight. Went to needlepointing. Loved it! Start Class this tuesday. Went to dinner club with devin. Loved that too! Was fun and met some nice people.
Thursday had gymboree with Dr. Care and bebe drake...Then dinner with b, Dr & D. before heading back to the 'hood.
I picked up my mail and it frustrated me so bad. I got sent to collections for unpaid bills which I did not know I had. And health insurance did not cover any of that $500.00 bill. WTH? So slap in the face. I got to sort out the car and don't know how I am going to swing that. I got so mad at my mom for getting into my business. I was calling to ask questions about a check my dad sent in and she started making comments and suggestions and told me how things should be. Believe me, I know how things should be but with this insurance world...it is not! I was criticized and given suggestions and thoughts that I did not need to hear at 5AM because I did not sleep at all that night because of stress. Then she opened up my bills and called me back to tell me the collection agency is calling home. I WAS IRATE! She said she would pay them. I told her I did not want her to b/c I could not trust her. She is filled with empty promises. And then she threw the "well you always say I am 35, I can handle things myself" I hung up on her. My family is so MESSED UP! in every way possible. I don't understand them. I think they are all crazy! they think I am difficult, moody and they have to tip toe around me. But seriously they are screwed up! But I am saving that story for a book!
Secrets, lies, arrests, deaths...crazy! crazy! crazy!
Friday was a fun skype date with my boys..yen and hen! Miss those boys so much and they cut off their hair!
This weekend has been about looking for work, needlepointing and gym and pool....I have not spoken to anyone but Joe and his son. Not in the mood to reach out. Will call people tomorrow. Carrie is awesome. She invited me to a pool party today, but I was just in a funk and did not want to drive that far on a holiday weekend. So for now...I might go see what is going on in the other room...
But before..ok I am on match.com..Not sure why. But met a pianist that teaches at ucla. I think he thought we were dating before we even went out!
I agreed to go out with him but asked for a photo. He said he would send one. And me being the investigator that I am, I found one online b4 he sent it so told him no need to send pic because it does not matter, I think it would be fun to meet up with him. Which I meant. I love the piano and he writes music, so thought it would be fun! Well I was on-line after Dinner with Devin on Wed and he started instant msg me. And it creeped me out. He kept saying " that is so sweet, do you really like me?"
"You said you really like me before we met, that is so sweet." UM..no I never said that. But he would not quit with this nonsense, so the next day I said you know what I am very busy the next few weeks and things have just come up. Which was so true. with collections, and car and bit stressed out and need to focus on finding work. within min. he replied back, well when can we meet up? I then replied, not sure like I said a lot is going on...then he said.. I will take your word for this and not read into it. I took my profile off match b/c just felt like it. Got sauced and changed my profile. When I changed my profile it automatically put it back on. Unaware of this, I get an email from piano man saying" i thought you were busy"...
Can we say, block and remove profile again! Within hours, I got an email on my gmail acct ...let me copy and paste...
Subject: Nice Attitude.
"Glad I didn't meet you. You showed your true colors and are a horrible liar. Blocking me on that site was the icing of the cake.....good riddance!
Get some manners...most people from NZ are very mannered...what happened to you???"
OK..lol...I decided not to meet you. I never lied, I have a lot on my mind and I am not from New Zealand. I am a bit concerned about this guys sanity at this point. Are you kidding me?
Then 15 min later I get this email from some made up address with athletic.dude in the email name but the guy had his initials as the contact so I immediately knew it was him...OK...whatever..here is the next email I got.
"How are you?
We met on that dating site. Are you busy this weekend or could you squeeze me in for a coffee?
George"
What piano man does not know is the email address i gave him is used only to enquiry about apts on craigslist and I don't give it to anyone. I only gave it to him b/c I did not want to give him my primary email addy b/c I did not want him to know my name. So, there is no way it could be anyone else but him. Then I checked the ip address and my thoughts were confirmed. OK I am a bit spooked out. Did not reply because I think I am dealing with someone with emotional issues. I contact match and filed a complaint. I am getting off this site. Only weird ones are finding me! I am done and for now I will just make out with 22 year olds late night in the pool!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
I have no idea
What I am going to do...but I got to do something. I told Joe I won't be here long. Carrie has been awesome and keeps telling me to come back over there. Barbara has offered up her place as well. But I think I am going to bounce around all over the place until I find a place of my own. I LOVE LA..have so much going on this week.
I joined equinox gym and love it! got to start working out harder...need to get my rear in shape!
Went out with Barbara sunday night...had a blast!
Carolanne invited me out Monday night...but was hungover.
errands and gym today
Lunch date and needlepoint shopping tomorrow then maybe meeting up with devin for din din...so sweet...
Friday Skype with my german boys! Miss them...then gym and pool and look for work.
Life is good...love it!
I joined equinox gym and love it! got to start working out harder...need to get my rear in shape!
Went out with Barbara sunday night...had a blast!
Carolanne invited me out Monday night...but was hungover.
errands and gym today
Lunch date and needlepoint shopping tomorrow then maybe meeting up with devin for din din...so sweet...
Friday Skype with my german boys! Miss them...then gym and pool and look for work.
Life is good...love it!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Chanel in Hawthorne!
Oh my goodness...I have finally made it to my final destination. I am on a month to month rental plan with my friend JOE! so fun and nice to see him. And he lives in Hawthorne. There are bars on my windows...so i feel safe. But I am in the hood. Met some nice neighbors tonight. Billy and adele. They were celebrating there 26th wedding anniversary.
I am so tired...so think I will try and get some rest tonight!
More about Lindsey in the hood to come...
I am so tired...so think I will try and get some rest tonight!
More about Lindsey in the hood to come...
Friday, August 20, 2010
California
I'm Here! Lovin it...hanging with Dr. Care and babe drake!
Headin to the hood 2MR where I will live and get situated!
Life works out well..Can't wait to see Joe!
Headin to the hood 2MR where I will live and get situated!
Life works out well..Can't wait to see Joe!
Monday, August 16, 2010
The Drunk Girl
Was not me on Friday Night~ woohoo!
It was actually fun being not the "drunk girl"
There was one girl dancing at the bar at sonnenalp.
She requested a john denver song and asked me if he was still alive.
I said no he died in a plane crash.
She said..oh no..not a plane crash in the rockies like he sings about.
I did not have an answer for her.
Her husband came in from bully ranch for the second time to tell her to come back to eat.
She left...for now....
Next girl...just married...on honeymoon...asked me to move in with her and husband to be nanny.
I said...let me go to the restroom and if you are still here when I get back...we will discuss...
As I walked out..her husband was dragging her out of bar.
Me...smiling..I was in control...well for at least that night!
It was actually fun being not the "drunk girl"
There was one girl dancing at the bar at sonnenalp.
She requested a john denver song and asked me if he was still alive.
I said no he died in a plane crash.
She said..oh no..not a plane crash in the rockies like he sings about.
I did not have an answer for her.
Her husband came in from bully ranch for the second time to tell her to come back to eat.
She left...for now....
Next girl...just married...on honeymoon...asked me to move in with her and husband to be nanny.
I said...let me go to the restroom and if you are still here when I get back...we will discuss...
As I walked out..her husband was dragging her out of bar.
Me...smiling..I was in control...well for at least that night!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Changes
Each morning when you wake up it is a new fresh day. You get a clean slate and a chance to change habits you don't like.
Theme song: jamie foxx... BLAME IT ON THE ALCOHOL!
For instance, I was getting a bit sauced up lately. I am embarrassed and mortify to go into town now. I made a complete and total fool of myself. So as Maria Robinson said, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
I quit going out and started hitting the gym.
Theme song: Olivia Newton John LET"S GET PHYSICAL
I am having a blast there. I love people watching and discovered if I go in the afternoon there is some good eye candy there!
Afterwards, I hit the sauna, steam room and jacuzzi. Shower up and get home to eat a salad or weight watchers meal...
Today, I took a pilates equipment class. I am a bit scared of my pain tomorrow. I have not worked out my core in a while.
But am happy to say I have lost almost 8 lbs since I left Seattle a month ago. Woohoo.
I don't feel like I have changed anything nor do I feel like I have deprived myself. Maybe it was the stress from the whole antarctica thing or me taking notice of when I am actually full and to put down the fork. I am enjoying walks by Gore Creek - listening to my ipod and singing. Yes, I think some people think I am a bit silly...but does it really matter? Made more of fool in the bars...
Theme Song: Dolly Parton Nine to Five
So, as we all know Antarctica is not happening. I am a tiny bit disappointed but a HUGE BIT relieved. I was just getting too anxious. And I hate feeling like that. So this week I started sending out resumes. Sending them to Vail, Cali, TX, and pretty much any job I see. It is such a tough market right now and one that I do not want to be in. But I am unemployed right now and must really pound the pavement. Wish me luck!
Which leads me to I am getting bored in Vail and no feedback from resumes, so time to move on. But so torn.
Like Winston Churchill said, “There is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction”
Theme song: Supertramp GOODBYE STRANGER
This is my life. I have such a huge fear of commitment. How do I know Cali will be good for me. I been there and failed.
The only plus is I have some amazing friends there that have offered up a place for me to stay. But they all have their families and children and it will get old. Their friendship is more important to me than a place to stay, but I can't afford to go blind to Cali with nothing lined up. I am lonely and bored here but have a place to stay. Or do I take a chance and try Cali again. It is not necessarily going to be the same because I have changed a lot since I left LA 5-6 years ago. I am such a different person. I know what i will put up with and act accordingly. Shockingly, it still hurts a bit but at least I have self respect for myself which brings me to ....
Theme song: Donna Summer LAST DANCE
I am 35 years old, do not need to go to the bar for a last dance! I have mortified myself and have not met any quality guys. One guy....New Jersey wealth...I kinda wish I was nicer..but it is done, he never called, move on!
So we got nature boy...I finally told him no more late night calls and I have not heard from him since.
Hurts my feelings because he is a nice guy, but did I want to marry him?....NO WAY....So move on...
And.. I MOVED ON TO MATCH.COM.....um...yea...wrong move...
Met one guy whom I had fun chatting with. English Gent...oh no...but funny. We would same time back and forth about the song afternoon delight and how it sounded like an ice cream marketing plan. It was fun...until he started emailing me to see if I wanted an afternoon delight. Don't know the guy real well, so do not think those jokes were appropriate. If they were jokes, I am not sure...He asked for number...I gave it once. He lost it and I take that as a sign. Would not give it to him again.
Then I met a guy who is so cute! He gave me his company website and his number and asked that I call. I *67 the number and called. OH MY GOSH...Guy was wasted! I mean wasted. In a matter of minutes, I knew he was divorced 2xs, he gets paid $150 an hour, he is opening up a new store, he moved here for a girl, he likes lots of activities, he easily is affected with seasonal affected disorder, how much his house cost, his recent DUI, and now he drinks only at home...obviously...guy was WASTED!
I tell the guy, I saw the picture of you with your nephew (who by the way looks about 3) and your nephew is adorable. He said oh...he is older now. Oh how old is he...He is in highschool - guy tells me. So his photo is at least 10-14 years old. I kind of wanted to ask if he had a more recent one, but guy was so drunk and babbling on about himself...I could barely get a word in.
I finally mention, I must go to bed and he says I made his night. Thank you for talking and let's meet tomorrow. He asks for my number. I tried to tell him I did not know it and he finally got my cell number out of me. I was bummed but did not know what to do and who knows maybe meeting for tea would be nice. But Drunk A$$ repeated the wrong number back to me.
I did not correct him.
Sent him an email a few hours later to cancel.
Guy did not get my email so continued to email me telling me he was at the covered bridge at 11 to meet me because he tried calling and my v/m was not set up. He wanted to reschedule. I said, I would call tomorrow. And have not heard from him since.
So..what was I thinking...I don't know....so back to plan a. Continue with scrapbooking, reading daily devotionals and working my fat rear off...until next time...good night!
I am very lonely here and ready to move on. But FEARFUL of the unknown. so a few more quotes
“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson quotes (American Poet, Lecturer and Essayist, 1803-1882)
“The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.”
Flora Whittemore quotes
“Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.”
Keri Russell quotes
Roseanne Cash “The key to change... is to let go of fear.”
Theme song: jamie foxx... BLAME IT ON THE ALCOHOL!
For instance, I was getting a bit sauced up lately. I am embarrassed and mortify to go into town now. I made a complete and total fool of myself. So as Maria Robinson said, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
I quit going out and started hitting the gym.
Theme song: Olivia Newton John LET"S GET PHYSICAL
I am having a blast there. I love people watching and discovered if I go in the afternoon there is some good eye candy there!
Afterwards, I hit the sauna, steam room and jacuzzi. Shower up and get home to eat a salad or weight watchers meal...
Today, I took a pilates equipment class. I am a bit scared of my pain tomorrow. I have not worked out my core in a while.
But am happy to say I have lost almost 8 lbs since I left Seattle a month ago. Woohoo.
I don't feel like I have changed anything nor do I feel like I have deprived myself. Maybe it was the stress from the whole antarctica thing or me taking notice of when I am actually full and to put down the fork. I am enjoying walks by Gore Creek - listening to my ipod and singing. Yes, I think some people think I am a bit silly...but does it really matter? Made more of fool in the bars...
Theme Song: Dolly Parton Nine to Five
So, as we all know Antarctica is not happening. I am a tiny bit disappointed but a HUGE BIT relieved. I was just getting too anxious. And I hate feeling like that. So this week I started sending out resumes. Sending them to Vail, Cali, TX, and pretty much any job I see. It is such a tough market right now and one that I do not want to be in. But I am unemployed right now and must really pound the pavement. Wish me luck!
Which leads me to I am getting bored in Vail and no feedback from resumes, so time to move on. But so torn.
Like Winston Churchill said, “There is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction”
Theme song: Supertramp GOODBYE STRANGER
This is my life. I have such a huge fear of commitment. How do I know Cali will be good for me. I been there and failed.
The only plus is I have some amazing friends there that have offered up a place for me to stay. But they all have their families and children and it will get old. Their friendship is more important to me than a place to stay, but I can't afford to go blind to Cali with nothing lined up. I am lonely and bored here but have a place to stay. Or do I take a chance and try Cali again. It is not necessarily going to be the same because I have changed a lot since I left LA 5-6 years ago. I am such a different person. I know what i will put up with and act accordingly. Shockingly, it still hurts a bit but at least I have self respect for myself which brings me to ....
Theme song: Donna Summer LAST DANCE
I am 35 years old, do not need to go to the bar for a last dance! I have mortified myself and have not met any quality guys. One guy....New Jersey wealth...I kinda wish I was nicer..but it is done, he never called, move on!
So we got nature boy...I finally told him no more late night calls and I have not heard from him since.
Hurts my feelings because he is a nice guy, but did I want to marry him?....NO WAY....So move on...
And.. I MOVED ON TO MATCH.COM.....um...yea...wrong move...
Met one guy whom I had fun chatting with. English Gent...oh no...but funny. We would same time back and forth about the song afternoon delight and how it sounded like an ice cream marketing plan. It was fun...until he started emailing me to see if I wanted an afternoon delight. Don't know the guy real well, so do not think those jokes were appropriate. If they were jokes, I am not sure...He asked for number...I gave it once. He lost it and I take that as a sign. Would not give it to him again.
Then I met a guy who is so cute! He gave me his company website and his number and asked that I call. I *67 the number and called. OH MY GOSH...Guy was wasted! I mean wasted. In a matter of minutes, I knew he was divorced 2xs, he gets paid $150 an hour, he is opening up a new store, he moved here for a girl, he likes lots of activities, he easily is affected with seasonal affected disorder, how much his house cost, his recent DUI, and now he drinks only at home...obviously...guy was WASTED!
I tell the guy, I saw the picture of you with your nephew (who by the way looks about 3) and your nephew is adorable. He said oh...he is older now. Oh how old is he...He is in highschool - guy tells me. So his photo is at least 10-14 years old. I kind of wanted to ask if he had a more recent one, but guy was so drunk and babbling on about himself...I could barely get a word in.
I finally mention, I must go to bed and he says I made his night. Thank you for talking and let's meet tomorrow. He asks for my number. I tried to tell him I did not know it and he finally got my cell number out of me. I was bummed but did not know what to do and who knows maybe meeting for tea would be nice. But Drunk A$$ repeated the wrong number back to me.
I did not correct him.
Sent him an email a few hours later to cancel.
Guy did not get my email so continued to email me telling me he was at the covered bridge at 11 to meet me because he tried calling and my v/m was not set up. He wanted to reschedule. I said, I would call tomorrow. And have not heard from him since.
So..what was I thinking...I don't know....so back to plan a. Continue with scrapbooking, reading daily devotionals and working my fat rear off...until next time...good night!
I am very lonely here and ready to move on. But FEARFUL of the unknown. so a few more quotes
“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson quotes (American Poet, Lecturer and Essayist, 1803-1882)
“The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.”
Flora Whittemore quotes
“Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.”
Keri Russell quotes
Roseanne Cash “The key to change... is to let go of fear.”
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